That transfusion of your conscious to your higher conscious
is really a matter of how much you have worked up to it and how much
you have submitted. The work is one thing – you can achieve
that – but the trust and submission are something that some
of us may not achieve in our lifetime. Why? Because it is hard to
suddenly trust something that you feel but cannot see. You may be
seeing His representative, the teacher, but he’s a human being
too; you may ask how you can submit yourself to the teacher, as a
human? That’s ego using physical and intellectual boundaries.
Looking at your faults and discrimination between the
right and the wrong within yourself does not mean doing the same for
other people – you’re not here for other people, this
is your life. You could waste it just concentrating on other people
and what they’re doing but then you’ll have just wasted
your life and an incredibly valuable opportunity.
The main thing is that repentance comes back to our
forgetfulness and neglecting the Beloved. As I said, eventually you
reach the second stage (the Repentance of the Repentance) and you
find yourself coming to the meditation and enjoying it so much you
start telling yourself, ‘How dare I not be thinking about or
feeling that other side’. Of course, what you’re doing
is forgetting again! Rather than enjoying that moment, you’re
thinking about whether you should have done this or that – and
that’s what you need to stop. Rather than thinking what you
could have been doing, just acknowledge that thought and be thankful
to the Beloved that you have this opportunity to enjoy, to experience,
His Grace. Otherwise, you end up missing that point.
I mentioned earlier and I’ve said it many times
before, a Sufi is a child of the moment. What’s happened in
the past is gone; you can’t do much about it. It is experience,
yes, so live with it, understand it and learn from it. And as for
the future, nobody has a guarantee. Don’t miss today for the
sake of the past or the future.
